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Tweak says, "Are you coming and going"

beautifully broken (blackcloud) wrote,
@ 2011-05-07 17:01:00

Current mood:	exanimate
Current music:	brian littrell ;; over my head

i'm in over my head... right where i want to be..
when is it actually time to just let it go?

domino ; i went over a few old logs of jay/kris the other day, and it made me think about you. i miss you hon. <3

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	avenged 2011-05-07 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	that's a question i find myself asking from time to time..... :/ love you, hon. ♥ (Reply to this) (Thread)

blackcloud
2011-05-07 09:14 pm UTC (link)

it's weird.. if this were a few years ago, i wouldn't care.. and would honestly just jump right into the drama. but, it's not a few years ago. and here i am, more tired of drama then i should be.

i was looking through an old journal last night, bit by bit i've been removing myself from certain things and people. the scary thing about that is that i didn't even notice i was doing it, until last night.

love you too, lil. <3

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avenged
2011-05-07 09:18 pm UTC (link)

i honestly have grown incredibly tired of people's games, nonsense and bullshit. that's why i find myself sticking where i am, with the writers that i do. i think there's just something in me mentally that can't do it as much anymore. i may be at a all time high in terms of how many i have, (well, secondary, i still don't think i have as many as i did when btg was around.) and i'm happiest because i avoid the drama and get to just, write. that's what i need. :-/

just remember, when the drama becomes first and foremost? it's not fun and that's what this is supposed to be at the end of the day, fun. <333

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blackcloud
2011-05-07 10:59 pm UTC (link)

that's just it. i actually have a bunch of writers that i trust, and truly enjoy playing with. (even if one's a huge torn in my side right now.) it just feel's different.. so much different.

i've never wanted to simply kill off my personal id, and never step foot on it again. yet, i continue to have those thoughts, and often enough lately. not that i want to stop gaming.. but stop all ooc contact, to get rid od the drama.

but then i start thinking about how i'd miss the other people i've come to love on here. the ones that don't cause drama everytime i talk to them.. and then, the headaches come.

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